If you only knew me

If you only knew me;

You would know I am in pain everyday,

and I pray everynight.

If you only knew me;

You would realize I cry to myself at night,

hugging my pillows tight.

If you only knew me;

You would understand I don't feel strong,

infact I feel powerless in most situations.

If you only knew me;

You wouldn't ask how I am doing,

you would already know my answer.

If you only knew me;

You would know how the littlest bit of stress affects me,

and leaves me bed ridden for days.

If you only knew me;

You would know my heartaches,

and wants to join in life again.

If you only knew me;

You would know I want to be held,

ever so softly in your arms.

If you only knew me;

You would know how many times I have been to the edge,

and cried myself back to reality.

If you only knew me;

You would know I grieve my past life,

and I continue to go back and forth.

If you only knew me;

you would know it is all going to be fine,

because I am here today!  And I plan to stay!