As I sit here void of all energy, I am trying to find a message I would like to share. I am here, but lack a sense of actually being here. I forced my self out of bed this morning as my body was stiff, sore, and cracking. I have a headache that forces me to realize that today is "real".
I am on my way to taking care of myself! I feel I will be able to start taking action to do more then just blog and share my inner thoughts and feelings on my life. It has been a long time coming, and I will be able to move forward soon.
The weather is changing once again, and I feel it in my hips and shoulders/neck. It is nagging at me terribly, but I ignore it as to say, just go away! I hate when the days start this way, but I do my best to just keep moving. The pain circling from my shoulders down my scapula and around my ribs, takes my breath away. It makes it hard to ignore.
My daughters support system has grown, and her spirit has risen. The stress on me is being lifted as this happens. It feels good to know that she will be OK, and I can rest. My body is telling me to rest. The stress flowing out of me, releasing the grip it has had on my muscles. Everyone knows what stress can do to a body. I refused to allow it to stop me for so long. I believe in moving forward, never backwards. Life deals you enough problems, why put yourself in a backwards position.
My daughter is what I used as a distraction, to keep going. The Love I have for her keeps my mind strong and able to ignore my pain and push on. When needed I take time for myself as to regroup to continue on my journey. For she is the one I reach out to for understanding, venting, and love. I cherish her more than life itself, and would lie down my life for hers.
Change is coming! A good change. Life is going to be better, and now I must grow my support group to continue on. I am excited to move forward to see where I end up. I feel happiness coming over me. It has been a long time since I could say I was happy. It sounds so wonderful.
I hope to continue this blog, but being able to educate more then having to vent my frustrations. Although venting is good, I look forward to adding more information!
So today is a good day emotionally. I don't know that I have ever said that in my blog!
I am on my way to taking care of myself! I feel I will be able to start taking action to do more then just blog and share my inner thoughts and feelings on my life. It has been a long time coming, and I will be able to move forward soon.
The weather is changing once again, and I feel it in my hips and shoulders/neck. It is nagging at me terribly, but I ignore it as to say, just go away! I hate when the days start this way, but I do my best to just keep moving. The pain circling from my shoulders down my scapula and around my ribs, takes my breath away. It makes it hard to ignore.
My daughters support system has grown, and her spirit has risen. The stress on me is being lifted as this happens. It feels good to know that she will be OK, and I can rest. My body is telling me to rest. The stress flowing out of me, releasing the grip it has had on my muscles. Everyone knows what stress can do to a body. I refused to allow it to stop me for so long. I believe in moving forward, never backwards. Life deals you enough problems, why put yourself in a backwards position.
My daughter is what I used as a distraction, to keep going. The Love I have for her keeps my mind strong and able to ignore my pain and push on. When needed I take time for myself as to regroup to continue on my journey. For she is the one I reach out to for understanding, venting, and love. I cherish her more than life itself, and would lie down my life for hers.
Change is coming! A good change. Life is going to be better, and now I must grow my support group to continue on. I am excited to move forward to see where I end up. I feel happiness coming over me. It has been a long time since I could say I was happy. It sounds so wonderful.
I hope to continue this blog, but being able to educate more then having to vent my frustrations. Although venting is good, I look forward to adding more information!
So today is a good day emotionally. I don't know that I have ever said that in my blog!
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