Continued

So Life is so confusing at times.  I walk around in what they call "Fibro Fog" all the time.  I can have a conversation with you and five minutes later have no idea I had the conversation let alone what was said!  This of course is on moderate to severe days.  Then your medicated on top of it, and it gets really bad.

When I think back to when I was a child and young preteen, I remember having such bad growing pains.  I would cry it hurt so bad.  I would sit and hold my legs tight to my chest.  Then my daughter went through the same thing, and now my oldest grandson is the same way.  It makes me think, could this be an indication of FM as a child?  I had problems sleeping since a child as well.  I see some of the same attributes in my daughter now.  Insomnia, depression, no energy, anxiety, IBS, being in a fog, unable to get up and fuction right away.  And the knots in her back are the same as the tender points for diagnosing FM.  It scares me to death to think I may have passed this trait on to my child, and possibly her children.  Guilt is the word that comes to mind.  Even though I know if they do get it, it's not my fault, but the guilt will definately be there.  Any parent would feel the same way i think.

But this is a good example of what I do with everything in my life!  I worry about the what if's, and it could happen things that do nothing but drain my energy.  Wasted energy as my counselor would tell me.  I know not to let things go to that point.  I need to stay in the moment that I am in.  This is not an easy thing for me to do.  But I work hard at it everyday, and trust me, it is work!



My daily life cycle!