Struggling

Life' journey continues to be a struggle.  I have been in so much pain, and nothing seems to help.  I have seen the chiropractor three times, it hurt so much during the adjustments, and I still have no relief.  My arm continues to tingle and have numbness from my shoulder to my fingers.  I don't think this is the FM.  I believe it is from the top of my back below the fusion in my neck.  This scares me.  there is nothing that they can do because I have no more stable discs in my back.
So life must go on and I must learn to deal with it the best that I can.  Which isn't easy for me, or anyone around me.  I just am scared of losing function completely in my arm, especially since it is my dominant arm and I write with it.  I feel like a hen pecking at the keys, as i can't even type right anymore.
My ear is still clogged and I can hear out of it on and off.  Mostly just the ringing though.  which completely irritates the crap out of me.  No pain meds....  Which has been challenging itself.  Tramadol, but it is like I haven't taken anything.  It doesn't work for me.
I just want my life to be simpler.  I don't want to deal with all the drama that goes on in my life with my family.  Sometimes I just want to run away and not look back.  it's not like I don't spend all my time alone anyways.  Now I am just babbling.
Well I have company so I need to cut this short.  my adoptive daughter is here!  Time to spend some quality time.